That one boy
Ever just laid there listening to music and thought of that one guy? Im sure we all have and im sure that no matter what you do or where you go he will always be on your mind. I know i know it sucks not having them as yours but if you play your cards right and manage to play the game right then im sure you will win the big prize.
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Ever had a crush on one of your workmates? well i sure have and im crushing on him right now. Its a hard thing to deal with going to work and seeing the person you have a crush on and then not knowing what to say to them when the time comes. I stayed at his house and it was really awkward but we chilled, talked and slept like you do when you sleep over at a mates house.
I wish there was something i could do with this crush but i mean at our work place if your partner works there too its a big no no because you could end up getting distracted by them throughout the day and not do your job properly so my boss says. If there was something i could do with these feelings i sure as hell would i mean heck yeah i would date him and everything and he a swell guy i just get all locked up when im around him and im not too sure on how i should react when im around him.
If anyone has some advice i would love to hear it
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Here we are t=with an awkward subject…. When i was growing up as a kid i thought sex was an act of love and love a word you only used for your family and your husband or wife when you get there but over the years i have seen sex become the new trend like no one cares what age you lose your virginity now like 8 year olds are doing and no one is stopping them, is there something that i have missed? Have i been living under a rock with all this sex stuff? I see kids younger than me who have done more things that what i have done and then cry when the guy leaves them. I still live in the old times where you start seeing a guy and you go on dates and only have sex with them after maybe three or four dates depends but normally i dont have sex with them until i know i can trust them which normally isnt til we say our “i love you”. This now brings me to the whole “love” thing, it gets thrown around like there is no tomorrow people say it after two days of what i like to call a “makeout session” no one really knows the true meaning of it. I say it to my family because i do love them i love them more than anything in this world and if i was to die tomorrow the last thing i wanna say is that i love my whole family from the old and wise to the young and helpless. Most young ones that say i love you to their so called partners are just feeling lust there is nothing called love at an age that young they shouldnt even know what sex it
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I thought it was going to be a real struggle, thought i would try and find a man to help me out and tried to be around people who could make me smile but that made it all worse, i left him because i found that i was having a better just chilling with friends and having quiet drinks after work with the work mates. Things like this get some people down in life but everyday i go to work i smile because i know that i have people there who will make sure that im okay and if i am having a shit day they will make me smile. I would think about my hunny all the time but it just wasn’t working out at all i mean if im having a better time at work where they make me smile every minute of the day and make laugh instead of being with my man who just made me feel so shit then wouldn’t you leave him? Some people might say that i made the wrong decision about leaving him but i think it was the right one. If anyone out there has this thing called depression don’t let it get to you and don’t be shy about self harming, as i have realized now and after listening to the Battle Scars by Guy Sebastian i look at my scars and think this is showing the world that i can fight this war with smiles and laughs and have a good time and not have to rely on pills to make me smile everyday instead of giving up and ending it all. Yeah for sure some days i wanna give up and give in but i know that there are people all around me that will feel it, my family, work mates, extended friends and family, and possibly the wider community because once a young one takes their life its a sad sad thing, i mean yeah it is sad when people take their own life but we have to think of the shit they had to go through some times it might just have been to much on their plate. I hear idiots walking around school pointing and laughing at people who cry and have scars on their arm saying stuff like “they just doing it for the attention” but its not until you get the sad news that you now have to live with depression, i managed to find a way to cope with it but i know some people just cant. When i turned up to work with fresh cuts by best work mate asked how i was and all i could was look at him with sad eyes and pull up my sleeves and show him but did he care? No he didn’t he smiled and said “oh mate, you should come to the concert with me and my friends its going to be a mean set up out there” and for the rest of the day he made sure i was okay and was having a good time, he made me smile the whole day and made sure that i didn’t have one moment where i wanted to cry and im grateful as anything to have him in my life.
All we need when we have depression is people that can make us smile and people that wont bring us down.
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